Another insomnia today, because i’ve been thinking about my mom recently,
Since my mother passed away, i’ve often dreaming about her. Yes, i miss her badly. Loosing her was the first saddest moment in my life. And in my dream, she’s come back alive, but still in a state of her illness. She’s so fragile there, i’ve help her to move, and hug her sometimes. And when i awake, i felt so upset, because she’s not here anymore..
Hhh.. I still remember the sense of my last time embraced her, her tiny body, her white hair, her tears in my shoulder, her voice was sounds trembling and sad.. Telling me that she has no more time to live, and keep asking me for taking care of my father when she’s gone. At past, i tought she’s acting spoiled.. I never tought it’s her last message..
It might just my remorseful for not giving all i can do to take care of her when she’s sick. My love encourage me, he said that i did it, i’ve done for gave her all i can do. But i thought it will never enough.